The Bitterness and Sweetness That Makes Us Humans

Change.. Its constant and if u don keep up with it, its either u lose out, else u will find it difficult to catch up with it.. Which in turn can lead u to missing out on lots of stuff.

However on the other hand, at times.. certain change may not really affect u but its still gd to know..

Last night, on my way home from movies. Went to watch “The Coffin”, i saw Samantha and Cally.. We chat abt loads of stuff.. From Sch, to work, to friends (their clique of friends) to some extend our persona life)

One change for sure tat its obvious is my KPOness. ahaha Wen i was in secondary sch, im quite KPO and ask stuff and stuff but not gossip abt it.. Unlike the rest, i never had a clique per say nor was i ever in a clique.. I was always well to an extend an all rounder but most of the time a loner.. Perhaps it didnt really like being in cliques..

Then again maybe the onli clique i had would be wif Samantha cos she is like my childhood friend.. We live in the same area jus a block across each other. Though through the years both of us have change and well to some extend, she did once say tat i am moving towards wat i wan ie, goin to an ITE and doing wat i like to a poly to doin wat i want.. Though it wasnt ideal but yes.. i still had it.. And of course in terms of my job, i got my SATS job.. Though im still waiting now but since 17, i was working wif SATS though not directly but still i had it..

It was not planned and well i took it well and yes.. it was an awesome experience tat money cannot buy and well to an extend she did say i was blessed as compared to the rest in the clique.. i dont know wat lead her to make tat statement then.. but well now, some of them in the clique she was in tat is now coming to an end, are doin quite well. Most of them finished NS and well some are married, some are in e midst of planning to get married and well some are jus turning into backstabbing swines..

I always hear of how guys can be bitchy.. Well after the conversation last night. Yes now i believe.. IF anyone is reading this. i think some would say im bitchy but some might say im still at a gossiping stage but Angeline and gang, would say tat im at a Zappy level.. the ultimate and atas.. But then again we Zappy abt brainy stuff.. ahah.. well u gotta hang wif us to understand it..

hehe.. But well listening to the convo, i dunno y but though we are of the same age, but its like kids play which Samantha too says. but well its them and im not close wif them.. so tats none of my business well at least not anymore..

MMm Cliques. wondering now if i have any.. Perhaps i had but well im quite sure im not in one nor do i have one. Oh wells.. These change in people well.. its changing..

I jus hope i can remain the same but thing is i cant.. For example i was hurt and now i would very much say my heart is as hard as stone.. Some might find or think its tiring but maybe cos im immune to it that im not feeling anything like tat and its nothing.. Is tat something to worry abt?

Hmmm perhaps im destined to change into someone bitter, evil.. Like some morbid dark warload Oh well i doubt tats possible cos i still wanna be a crew.. hehe then again.. i can be the cabin crew wif a dark side and from there, and if i be a CIC, ill be the dark evil CIC and every flight will be a living nightmare as dark and bloody as hell.. hehe ok im thinking way too much. hehe

Cos then again i doubt tat possible cos my kids make me human.. oh well change.. always happening, ever changing and constant.. period..

As most would know, since young my parents were seperated and divorced in recent years. Since i nvr had a father well he was rarely involved in my life, the Queens are: My mum, my granny, my grandmother, my aunt (Father’s elder sister), my aunt (mother’s eldest sister), well this are the 5 who are actively involved. There is also my father’s youngest sister.

Since young, they were actively involved in my life in various aspects. Be in when i was at my lowest, through my education and well being and of course the long list goes on.

Centre focus now being on my mum and my eldest aunt (mum’s eldest sister). She was always e one who sponsored my trips (well most of it) and she remembers wat some of my favourite foodies are.

Thus every year well its more applicable for this year actually. She made “daging itam” well and an assortment of other stuff but yes every year, for Hari Raya and Christmas, for each of tis special season, i have a favourite dish.

So this time, wen my mum went overseas she returned with a big box. well the items inside werent many but well no more boxes so no choice. But well Foodies like my daging itam, and the satay gravy tat goes very well wif this mmm well its like e ketupat kinda thing but its wrapped up with a different type of leave but u nvr can see or get it in singapore at all.

Uberfyingly yummy. Well at least now mummy is finally back. And i can commence the usage of the word “PLANE CRASH” HEHE.. Since young, i nvr liked the idea of my mum flying alone without me. Maybe she is the only closest one to me and well to an extend she was the only one wif me wen the whole world ignored me. (this includes my grandmother, and aunty from my father’s side)

My aunt and granny from my mum’s side well because we were far from each other thus, i only had my mum around. And i remembered the first time she flew off for a business trip and i was 13 then (prior to that there were other business trips but i had someone to look after me).

When i was 13, she got her gd friend to look after me because well no one wanted to look after me and i didnt wan to have my grandmother look after me because of all the stuff tat would happen to me so my mum’s friend watched over me. i remember the first time i cried like there was no tomorrow like i was at some funeral or something.

Well i was jus scared i would lose my mum cos of a plane crash. So since then i never used such words wenever she is outstation. I onli use those words wenever i travel wif her.. I recall one time we had to take a morning flight, and i said “wat if ur plane kenna terrorist attack arr or crash?” then said “choi! ur mouth always nothing clean come out!”

And infront of us, was a passenger who was flyin for the first time.. And my mum started to ask me stuff abt this plane we were on (A320) so jus told her and blah blah blah and then upon arrival tis pessenger thanked my mum.. I was like “er.. orh ok.. ahahha” and my mum i dunno looked freaking proud. -_-

Oh wells i guess at times they say the kids are the pride of the parents.. Wait let me correct that.. Some kids are the pride and joy of the parents.. Er dunno if its suppose to mean wat i meant but yea if u get my drift u get it else too bad.. hehe..

Back to happenings of today. hehe.. Had Incentive Travel today.. And for today’s module, we had a site inspection hotel to Marina Mandarin.. Mmm.. Before we left, the teacher gave us their website but well mmm i guess having to travel and been to hotels and see what they post on their websites, wat u see isnt always wat u get…

Before we left, the class had tis conversation amongest themselves and i was not involed.. i jus listened.. And tis girl went “Huh got second hand braces one arr” and i jus burst out laughin and the class followed.. Seriously its bad enough tat she dressed up like a rich tai tai, walks like she jus got fucked talked shit and sound like a bimbo and making tat statement really didnt make it any better.. in fact in reinforced tat image i already have of her which i have jus made. ;p

Sorry for being mean but i nvr have any close friends in my poly and too bad i nvr really like any of them onli a few lah.. perhaps.. If u know me well enough i always bitch at them wenever i get the chance cos i get it by them too and tats y i don mingle wif them

So yea we laughed the laugh and headed to the hotel. Upon arrival, well the staff were nice. 2 pretty i think european girls were in the Marina Mandarin uniform. Abit not balanced but well..

Their training manager came out.. and my god.. Not professional at all.. I mean her dressing was er.. so so but the face had no colour.. Pale and hair not done up.. like Sadako who jus got rapped and tried to be nice. like she did a quicky before meeting us.. hehe.. ok tats mean..

Moving on.. She took us to the 20th story which was the Meritus Club.. The deluxe club rooms were nice.. i love the view though the room was small but it was still very very nice..

Then we headed to the Presidential suite.. and OMG it was so so so bloody nice.. i didnt have a camera wif me and yes no shots.. apologies.. But wat turned me on so badly was this standing rain shower wif 6 massage functions and it was open concept.. I was so turned on and i felt like shitting.. Oh.. i have to now admit… i have fetish for posh looking hotel toilets and the toilettries from Hermes.. OMG.. its to die for.. and actually tis suite itself can also be a service apartment.. very very nice.. I nearly went like “Ok suckers.. kindly fuck out of the room and let me be in this room” hehe.. but i didnt..

Then we headed dwn to Level 6 of the board rooms.. And this classmate of mine, Ron asked (Conversation is as below)

R:Ay tis room is for who arr?

S: Wat u mean for who? As in target audience?

R: ya

S: For locals and foreigners lah of course from the corporate side lah

R: But locals, they have their office and meeting rooms wat..

S: Ron… If u are in ur class daily, will u get sick of it?

R: But y? Ay ask her (Training manager of Marina Mandarin)

S: OMG Ron.. u are diggin ur own grave.. ill help u break the ice wif her and u bury urself

S: (walked to the training manager) Hi my friend Ron has a question and i think its best u enlighten him. He wants to know who would usually use tis room?

TM(Training Manager): Erm i don get ur question.

S: Ron here would like to know who are ur target audience or the profiles of people who would usualy use it room?

TM: Orh both locals and foreigners

R: But locals they have their office here and it will have a meeting room.. why have it here…

(Sherwin walks to a distance and jus looks at Ron gettin mocked at and giggles.)

This is what happens if u don attend lessons, and slack. OMG.. seriously i dunno whether to laugh at or to pity him.. goodness.. But yes the girl who talked abt braces and her bimbotic grp where sticking around with the TM and asked her bimbotic stuff and talking like they will get a manageral position once they grad.

I kept rolling my eyes.. but interesting cos well im starting to like the hotel industry more and more.. Well basically im intrigued by the tourism and hotel industry which is where my flare is at and Events being my major falls nicely into tis industry as well.

Thing is.. it is indeed lucrative however competition is very stiff.. Hotels are constantly killing each other and blah blah blah.. Ok im having a test tomorrow on incentive travel and well im startin to let my tots for my test flow out.. which means its time for me to study and do my notes for my test tomorrw..

Before i end off. Overal today was quite a fruitful day and well nice would be a world ill use.. minus the personal stuff happening around but yes.. tats how my day was like..

Till i blog again.. Adios..

Mmmm ok.. 90% of Wall-e is in Eve now.. well more than that actually but well im jus procrestinating and taking my time to get the minor stuff in.. Actually the main bulk is already in but im not sure wats left out.. hmmm anyways will do it like soon before mummy comes back.

Mean time, am just enjoying the lonesome time i have at home.. hehe.. Hari Raya is tis Wednesday. It also happens to be CHILDREN’S DAY!! WOOT WOOT.. Cant believe im actually so happy its Children’s Day wen my peeps are either married and some have kids.. Goodness.. Yikes..

Oh wells wat the heck.. Anyways am alone at home because mummy went to Brunei for Hari Raya. Actually the main purpose is to visit my late Uncle’s grave. Though im very close wif my late uncle, still i have to be around to look after the house, my children and my mum’s cats.

This trip to Brunei is becoming a yearly affair because well usually before Hari Raya most muslims (at least the ones i know) visit their relatives graves thus its a ritual my mum does annually.

For me i usually do it at the end of the year wen im there for Christmas and initially it was to only visit my grandfather’s grave but yes now its another grave. BUt i dont know y.. Tis yr im kinda wondering if u want to go a not.. havent decided though a large part of me has this feeling of not wanting to go.

Oh wells will see how it goes..

Been doin some cleaning up.. Yesterday i did some light cleaning of the washing machine area in my kitchen and today cleaned my room, cleaned my kitchen, and the toilet and the sitting room.. not forgetting bathing Russell and Rashelle..

Been a long time since i did so much work.. hehe but i do like it alot esp wen u are alone at home and no one is home to disturb u. Kinda like living alone in ur own house.

Got myself like new sheets costing $113 from Balmain.. well it was the cheaper range but i kinda like the colours.. Black and silver.. nice nice.. goes well wif my white curtains and silver bed frame Not to mention e whole colour of the room.

I realise that im into blacks.. Black laptop, my nalgene bottle is also black, black crumpler and now black sheets.. hehe BLACK is my colour of the year.. hehe

Been spending some time wif Angeline..  On sunday after her friend’s wedding.. Headed to airport cos i was there after sending mummy off. We grabbed our Starbucks and headed to T1.. Goodness. it was like Little India towards Deepavali if u get wat im saying..

Was teaching her how to see planes.. hehe well its still lesson in progress.

Oh wells.. Am so pissed cos of Hari Raya, now my time table W.E.F next week is Monday, thursday and friday.. Im kinda getting used to my Tuesdays, Thursdays and Fridays.. Sad and well pissed with tis new arrangement:@

But wells i heard they are doin some change again so just look forward to e new change.. Well i hate it wen u have no classes but then have to go to tests in the late afternoon. I SERIOUSLY HATE IT!!! AND I HAVE IT ON THE 7TH OF OCTOBER.. SHIT SHIT SHIT!!!

Oh wells its late.. i need to go to bed now..

Finally im back from Cambodia.. to me, Cambodia was a place rich in history, and Culture.. Cambodia history and culture.. dates back centuries ago and well its history is related to borobodur, Thailand..

Lots have happened during tis trip.. I had 2 near road accidents.. 1 road accident.. Another tuk tuk hit my tuk tuk.. 5 of us were inside but we were ok.. my finger got hit resulting to a cut from the celling fan in the room where i was slping, got electrocuted..got bruised while trying to take a shot in ang kor wat.. Well not suppose to do such things but the shot was really really nice so i had to jus take the risk.. and i did.. Got some bruises..

During this trip.. i pushed myself quite alot.. I climbed 5 flights of very steep steps.. each step was the width of my feet and i the result was a paranomic view and u can even see Ang Kor Wat..

Though tis trip was an emotional roller coaster but still it was fruitful.. Emotional because we had our plans for the event all done.. but then cockups like the centre didnt wan us to hold the event there and so on.. made me plan a back up plan and later wen i ditched the original plan, the centre wanted my original plan and were optimistic abt it.. i onli had 5 attendees who attended due to the extremely last min invite..

Of course there were things like pple in the group having politics and back stabbing my other team director and i by renting a scooter without our knowledge and doing tings like clubbing and drinking till they got drunk which everyone agreed not to.. And during tis trip.. one of the girl in my team.. her grandmother passed away.. Tat night during our dinner.. we cried..

I shared abt my late uncle.. and suddenly i jus burst out crying and everyone was shocked i did so..

Anyways..This blog will be the longest ever containing day to day happenings of my entire Cambodia Adventure..

To sum it all up, it was awesome.. Awesome in many ways i would have to add.. i am thankful for my up bringing bcos i was able to adapt well and thank God for the many things tat happened to me during this time..

Just hoping i can share wif adventure verbally wif my close ones.. Miss my sister lots.. Russell and Rashelle slp wif me the whole night and was beside me constantly and its so nice to be back around them.. love them ever so much..

280808 *leaving on a jet plane.. dunno wen ill be back again*
Woke up and got ready…

Went dwn and well we arrived at the airport late and abang sukri one of our handler he was always there around wif us whenever we needed anything.. the group bonded well wif him and well like him alot..

After we arrived the airport, we offloaded our bags from the bus and hurried to check in cos we were a little late.. Sukri and the driver left immediately without waitin for us to say gdbye.. after we checked in, we realised he had already left and we were all very very sad..

While we were sitting waitin for our flight, Alice called him and we spoke to him.. Could tell he was crying but trying to sound happy.. The malay girls were crying.. I could onli be extremely thankful to him and watever he has done for us the past 2 weeks.

Anyways i broke myself from the group i was at 19F.. I had the whole row to myself and was happy could emo alone and be alone..

The moment i touched dwn, i called licia and mummy.. Bought my alcohol as usual and then later took my bag and sad my thank u to everyone and left..

Headed home and did my laundry..

**Back to the of the blog**

270808 *One more day till Cambodia’s Call is Answered"
We woke up abt 8am Singapore time and showered and headed dwn for breakfast.. I had onli a slice of bread and a class of orange juice.

Headed to Central market to shop and it was onli for an hr and thereafter we headed to our Singapore Embassy.. It was very very nice.. We were so so so very happy wen we were at the Embassy and Milton Goh the guy whom i have been in contact wif and mistook him for Melvin came and saw us..

Quite a nice person..

After the visit, we took some shots and toured around the embassy, we headed to Russian Market and really shopped.. I bought 2 thai pants and those thai tee shirts wif some of the their signiture tee shirts like "Same same but different", "I surived Cambodia", "Khmer Vowels" and an Ang Kor Beer Singlet.. These are all singlets minus the Khmer vowels which is my normal tee.. e rest would be for home or slping pjs..

After tat we headed to Cafe Malayu and for lunch and then off to Central market again.. the weather was very hot and we were in jeans bcos of the visit to the embassy.. but before shopping at Central Market, we headed to the national museum..

It was awesome there.. lots of history and while the guide was bringing them around.. one of the stops was to the god Vishnu.. he could change to 10 beings or something and then i called him Ben 10.. and everyone laughed.. the guide didnt get the joke and i jus said.. sorry.. hehe..

I was so enthu abt the whole historic visit for a split second i really wanted to be an archaeologist.. hehe.. well after the tour. we took shots wif the Garuda.. awesomeness..

Off we headed to central market and under the blazing hot sun, i got 2 adidas tee shirts, 1 ralph polo, 2 burberry one for mummy and another for me, er.. i cant remember wats the other one i got.. and i got myself a pair of aviator shades.. woohoo nice nice nice.. 

Then we headed to Sorea to chill and wait for the rest.. and off we headed back.

Dinner i was told was special but the menu was sucky.. boring stuff.. didnt eat much.. went back to my room munching on more snacks..

packed my stuff and i dozed off without showering tat night..

260808 *PNH here we come..*
We woke up and realised tat Asri, Aisha and Razan rented a bike.. Worse thing was neither of them had a license. Both Diyanah and i felt very betrayed and backstabbed.. I wanted to give them a piece of my mind..

We headed to PNH after breakfast at the same beach and tis time i used my ipod and dozed off and didnt hear the horn.. even if i did, it was like cows mowing..

ARrived PNH sometime in the noon and while they were having lunch, i did the check in procedures and distributed the key.. Becos of wat Asri did.. i made him room wif Haris.. Felt it was better.

We headed to Toul Sleng Genoside Museum and it was emotionally depressing.. I wasnt really disturbed though.. there were 4 blocks.. Block B had its original look wif the bulb wires and on one of the levels.. i heard screamings.. i looked around and everyone seemed normal.. Tats room i was in apparently was the torturing chamber.. and there were blood stains all over the place.

My guide there she was a victim herself. Her brother and father was killed and she was made a worker in the padi field.. During the tour from room to room, i used tat time to make conversation wif her and she told me abt it.. It did bring tears and one of the rooms i vividly recalled, where she shared of her story to us, she nearly broke dwn..

It was during Pol Pots era and even babies were not spared. They were killed either thrown in the air and shot or kicked or thrown to trees.. And this tree till today, if u visit killing field, its there..

After the tour, she said that we could walk around.. While the rest werent much interested, hani, Ash and i ventured to the upper floor at block B and we saw the chambers and frankly, it was extremely haunting and u could jus sense the aura and not much of creeps but the sadness but well.. maybe a bit of fear included.

We headed to Mekong River for our river cruise there after and headed back for dinner and had an early night.. It was tiring and well.. Having shower wif no magnisum smell was really good.. so gd tat i drank water from the tap which i was not suppose to.. Damns..

250808 *Sihanoukville*

Well we headed to the beach and cam whored there like no one business and had dinner there.. Caryn did her hair and had pedicure.. well its for the toes la so i think u get wat it means..

I guess for me, thru tis trip, im very happy that i realised i can be very much independent.. Tat i don need anyone around me.. I mean well having jus few friends around me and not have to be in a relationship.

I am truely indeed thankful that i was brought up in an independent environment because thrus this entire trip, i was very much alone at night onli wen i was wif my team mates and few friends.. 

240808 *Dirty Cambodia Boy*
We had to leave at abt 0430hrs, Cambodian time we left for Ang Kor Watt. The reason to why we left early was to actually see the sun rise.. I showered before my nap and well wore wat i was wearing to ang kor watt to slp cos i ddnt wan to shower again.

We arrived the counter to take our pictures.. Its for ur pass to enter all the Ang Kor’s.. Mine included Ang Kor wat, Bayon, and mm the temple where Tomb Raiders were shot..

Sun rise was beautiful and took few lovely shots there.. After the sun rise, we headed into Ang Kor wat itself. It was majestic and finally the dream of wanting to go in for yrs has finally come. I went it feeling peace, tranquility, and serenity.

Some of the original steps were actually not walker friendly thus wooden steps were made over these steps and wooden structures were built around some of the walls to support it from dropping and so on.

While i was there, i wanted to take a picture of one of the Bakan. But to take tis shot, i had to climb a wall and well in the process of doin so, i injured my knee and i can so tell u that the walls was so strong and u can sense the strenght of this building by jus hitting ur knee

After Ang Kor Wat, we went to our designated spot to wait for our tour guide and while we were waiting, lots of kids who were beggers came to sell us stuff.. We chose to ignore them.. One kid in particular went "Why u never talk, u got no mouth?"

I was amazed that they knew english and in fact could speak very well. But wonder why they beg. They do attend sch.. some of my team members pitied them and bought few items but it seems like e more u bought from one kid, another kid would come to u asking u to buy the same item.

And they got more and more rude and sarcastic. Another kid came to me and asked "buy for ur girlfriend." and i replied i had none and he asked "Why" and i asked him "Why shld i have a girlfriend and why must i fall in love?" and i asked him "Do u know wat love is?" and he was lost of words..

Its so funny that they start wif sentence A and if sentence A doesnt work, go to sentence B. If u get a certain answer, use sentence D. It really got to all of us that wen the bus came, we all went up into the bus and closed the door letting Haris wait for the guide along wif our local ground handler.

Wen they (Haris and my local guide) came we just left and all of us were furious and jus stared at those kids wif angry and i gave a sinister look.

Our guide was hilarious. His name was Roh Bhin Hout. At first i tot it was Robinhood but upon further investigation i found out tat the spelling was different. Wen we arrived the base of one of the mountain, frankly i cant really understand wat he was saying but i onli know i was filled with lots of enthusiasm.. Wherever he took us, i was ready for his adventure and mind u he took very gd care of all of us..

For those like me, who wanted some adventure up the hill, he wil tell those who are less active to follow a certain route and for us, he will tell us how to walk and of course watch us and lots of encouragement to not be scared and to walk up. I wasnt really scared.. Actually not scared at all but jus excited. Wen we were up, the view was awesome.

he showed us the first foot step of buddah and then i saw this tomb and i asked if we could climb up. He told me the history of the place that during the war, lots of bullets were fired and all the relics and stuff u can see the holes.. And at the top of the tomb i wanted to climb, there was a canon up there.. But of course now removed..

I asked can we go up, but carol advised us not to.. Haris later went up and of course.. If he went i too would go.. Each step was the size of the width of my feet so climbing up required some skill which i managed to pick up within seconds.. Hani, along wif Ash came along wif me..

Our guide waited for us and we went up together. Within mins we were up. The view was paranomic.. At the North u can see a man made reserviour. 8km long by 2.2km wide and 4m deep, and on the left was siem reap city. At the South u can see Ang Kor Watt in the forest and cant remember the other side.

One of the tombs there was where they shot tomb raiders. Our guide ill call him Robinhood asked Ash, Hani and i to do a pose together and took our shot.

there after we took another route dwn the hill and it was awesomely fun. Then we walked through the gates of i cant remember wat.. but at tat time.. i was so excited tat watever he said was so rich tat i cant pronounced and i was truely facinated by all of these things..

We took a bus and went to this place and kinda had lunch out at tis place.. very lovely before heading to Bayon.. I was really amazed by tis temple.. The king built it and he was buddhist and wen he changed his religion, he changed his queen and everything was hindu.. or was it the other way round.. cos tats wat the guide told me..

However one thing tat really facinated me was the temple.. In the courtyard of the temple, amidst the extremely hot weather, it was really cooling.. Reason being at every temple was a water system underneath it. thus e cooling effect we got.

After Bayon, we headed to another temple that was a hindu temple that was partly destroyed because they wanted to dig for the buddah that were burried underneath. Because wen the king changed his religion, he burried all the buddahs under the building. we also took a picture at the tree where Tomb Raiders was shot.

We headed back and i had to recharge my battries as it went flat and died on me. In the evening, we went to Tonlé Sap tour.. It was nice and relaxing and really a breather.. wish i could redo tat trip again.

Headed back and showered and wore the same outfit and at 2am, we headed of to Sihanok Ville.. The trip to Sihanoukville also known as Kompong Som was abt 10hrs. 5hrs from REP to PNH and another 4-5 from PNH to KOS.

We set off at 2am and the ride was quite ok untill the driver started his horning.. i didnt slp throughout the entire ride till the break of day.. We stopped at tis toilet and it was filled wif tons of mossies and i stil jus went cos i didnt wan to go to the toilet anymore.

Ash was seated beside me and i think he knew i wasnt slping and couldnt slp.. We went on and well i managed to see sunrise from the bus and it was nice.. We reached PNH and stopped at tis malaysian coffeeshop for food.. Caryn, and Joyce wen to the toilet and the comment they had was tat it was scary. they saw a rotting dead rat in the toilet.. ew ew ew..

Well soon after visitin the hotel we would stay in PNH after KOS, which was Puncak HOtel.. we continued on wif our journey to KOS.. It was then tat Ash told Carol tat i didnt slp for the whole night and if it was possible tat she gave me her seat so i could slp.

I dozed off immediately and woke up few hrs later.. like 3 hrs later.. Reason being my stomach felt very funny.. Lots of wind inside and bloated and i started to ask how long would we reach KOS.. my handler said 30mins and it seemed like an hr which was..

Mins later, i asked wat time would we arrive, he said that the driver lost his way.. E moment we reached the motel i rushed to the toilet and it jus let go.. Goodnes.. lots of wind..

We headed to the beach shortly after we arrived.. I managed to do my rooming for everyone in REP before we left so it was quite ok. I was rooming wif Ash and Asri.. not too bad cos both of them were very neat pple..

230808 *The Beginning of the End*
Today marks the end of our event and the start of our fun in Siem Reap.

We got up at 10am cambodia time.  Because we didnt shower the previous night because there was no water, Joyce, Alice, Caryn, Ash and i went to another guest house and we each paid abt USD3 to get a room to shower there.

After the shower, we felt so refreshed and then off to Pub Street. We went to Soup Dragon for lunch and had a feast there and off for massage.. I felt so violated cos the bitch was teasing me rather than massaging me.

very unprofessionally done. She slipped on top of me couple of times and while trying to twist my back, we and yes i mean WE fell twice.. It was tramatising rather than relaxing..

we made our way to the night market after meeting each other at the Soup Dragon.

We were early so we did some light spending aka shopping.. it was awesome that the event finally was abt to end.

The turn out was lower that the previous day and we ended at abt 2130hrs.. 

We all cheered after the event and headed to Temple club for some food while some were clubbing dwn stairs.. Headed back and started to do some packing as we had to be up early to go to Ang Kor wat.

I showered wearing the same set of clothes.. Kinda like a very dirty Cambodia boy…

220808 *The Moment of Truth*
Today was the day of my event.. It was also Alice’s first day of her road show event.

My event had 5 pple and well we had our posters.. Alice was the model to hold on to my posters while i was e emcee for the event.  Set up was done first thing in the morning wen we arrived then get all the other minor stuff..

Part of my had a refreshment networking session and we had food. So we washed some of the plates from the pottery area so that we can put the food on.. Yuko san took me to the well to get water.

Tomoko san and her then warned me to ensure that no one drinks the water. We had to get water from the well, then later pour it into this filter and it takes a very very long time to get sufficient water.

They told me many times in a stern tone "Singapore and japanese stomach cannot take Cambodian water. It is very dirty. If you drink, u will get very very bad stomach ache so don drink."

Of course i obeyed cos i could sense the care they had for us.

After the event, i guess the stress from Carol and Haris really got to me cos it seems like i was always approached to get tis and tat done while e rest were jus playing around. if i were to ask, it would have been done at glacial pace so id rather get it done myself.

Well i guess i reached my limit wen i had a very bad migraine. i lied on a bench in the pottery shed while waiting for my bus to come cos e bus was sending the attendees back.

The response i got was extremely welcoming which really made my day.

headed back and i jus crashed without eating at all. Wen i woke up i had wat i call ‘Post event stress syndrom’. U will dream of ur event wen ur event has ended and then get stress over it. Ash heard me talking in my dream and took himn quite some time to wake me up.

wen i got up,  we headed to Ang kor night market to attend Alice’s road show and i was the emcee.

We went back and had an early night.. Quite tiring.

210808 *The Rushing Game*
Time waits for no man. We woke up quite early and had to rush to the centre to share wif Yuko san and Tomoko San the ladies who ran the Pottery and Weaving section of the centre respectively.

We shared our plan with them and immediately printed everything.. It kinda got on my nerves that they didnt want to see the content but rather the layout and wanted to see the hard copy and time wasnt on our side.

Bakong was far from town and having to source for a printing service wif our desired paper quality wasnt very easy to get.. in fact quite impossible at where we were.

While Ash and Jasmine was in town to print the stuff, i had to discuss the design of the place wif Ju and Asri and it was hell.. Asri was more focused on his modeling and i was looking at the overal place and layout..

Ash and Jasmine broke dwn in town and i broke dwn wen i was at the shed where the event was to be held.

Yuko asked for the list but it stil wasnt out but our invitation cards were all out.. Carol was also there and well while they were in town, Ash called to ask if its ok we make do without our posters bcos we couldnt find a shop.. well no choice..

Took pictures which could add to resources for perhaps future groups. Well headed back but before that, carol took us to this place where we could see all the minor Angkor’s and such.. Very nice.. Kinda reminded me of the lego land in Amsterdam hee..

Later we walked to this place where the handicrafts were made by the orphans there..

Soon the van came to fetch us. On the way back i called Ash and Jasmine to meet Yuko san at Grand Hotel to approve the list of invitees and once tat was done.. Wen we went home, we immediately settled who does wat.

We headed out to town to send the invites.. Frankly i was encouraged by the number.. max of 20.. i expected less than 5 and at least 1 but i had 3 confirmation..

On our way to send the invites, my tuk tuk had an accident. Another tuk tuk driver jus came towards us and then tried to squeeze into tis small gap and it was too small that it hit into us and there were 5 of us. the girls were terrified and hani jus burst into tears she was jus between ash and i.. i was quite ok but my main concern was to calm hani and few of them dwn.

We had an early night..

200808 *The Waiting Game*
Woke up feeling rather tired and jaded and damned the Centre and we wanted to very much go ahead with our back up plan.

Lunch was quite nice and was at the restaurant where we had our breakfast on day 1.  Haris and Carol went to meet up wif the centre officials and well things took another 360 turn.

The centre liked our proposal and were extremely optimistic abt it.  The rest of the day was spent really resting and lying dwn.  The road show team were busy planning their own stuff untill abt 3 plus in the afternoon. News came in tat my open house event was confirmed goin to happen and that the road show cannot be on the centre..

Alice was stressed and well she wanted to onli keep it to one day.

190808 *Start of Terror and Changes to events*
We woke up abt the same time as the previous day and we didnt have much to do but to stay home to plan our stuff.. Got very impatient because we were getting inputs from the centre.

Apparently we went to an internet shop and we couldnt do much.  We went to the centre ourselves. Jasmine, Caryn, Joyce, Alice and i.. We took our tuk tuk and off we went to Bakong.. it was a 30min journey and tat was the day we submitted our proposals and it was not even submitted for approval yet..

We wanted to go to take some pictures and videos and upon arrival, we didnt manage to get anything done but instead we got a dressing dwn from one of the incharge..

Immediately we headed back and did our emergency plan. 

We discussed with every single group and well tat night was very emotional for few of us.. Not so much for the rest.. Perhaps they didnt see the seriousness of it.

Tat night we had our first reflection session with Caryn slping.. the rest were present..  Alice, Joyce broke dwn. Jasmine was enduring and so was i.. Through tis i realised tat as happy go lucky as i am, im not some one who see undone work be pending.. i just want to get it settled.

Though in singapore, we lead a fast paced life however we cannot deny that efficiency is important. I mean the faster the work is done, invites can be sent out and everything will be done efficiently.. N frankly even the brits would agree tat Singapore is excellent wen it comes to efficiency.. I was told by Qantas and British Airways themselves.

Anyways tat night our group discussed on invites, posters and our program list. and of course it can also be used for our back up plan.

We ended our night quite late..

180808 *The Start of My Cambodian Life*
We all woke up at abt 0900hrs Cambodian time.. Showered and had our morning briefing on which group is to do wat.. Once that was settled, we headed to Atisan D Angkor and off to Blue Pumpkin (A cafe that has free wifi) to meet and discuss our event stuff..

Unfortunately upon arrival, the wifi was dwn.. so we were quite useless without it.. The rest of the other teams went for massages leaving my team.. We discussed on the collatrals for our event.

Kinda got stuff settled and then we headed to walk around in town and because we were living in town area, we walked back and it was quite near.

It was dinner time and later we headed out for KTV.. First time ever i really sang.. One of the songs "Leaving on a Jet plane" i sang.. apparently captured lots of attention and Haris looked at me ahaha.. funny..

Well the malays in the team went to the club to dance and apparently got themselves drunk.. they broke all the rules actually.. Oh wells.. Headed back and yes tats the end of day 2..

170808 *Cambodia’s Call - FINAL*
Didnt slp the whole night after cleaning my room for the whole day.. Went out wif Abg Fai for maggie goreng at Simpang and then took a ride home via Coastal Drive.. It was very cold and was shivering on the bike.. This was 160808.. Headed home wif all my stuffed packed.. Just had to iron my stuff to wear to the airport..

Ash arrived quite early.. like shortly after midnight and i was watching tv.. Hani called me and said she was wif her date at ECP and they slept in the car.. Asking me wat time to fetch me.. Oh well.. Got ready at 0200hrs on 170808 and yea called them.. They arrived abt 2 plus in e morning..

Directed her date around to the airport and soon we arrived.. Wen we arrived.. some of them were there and their parents were there.. some had their whole entourage there.. i was e onli one along wif Jasmine who had no one sending them off.. E rest had dates, bf, parents, and watever nots sending them..

Oh wells.. I went to change my currency and along wif Jasmine and Ash, we headed in and had breakfast at BK.. We were on 3K599 bound for PNH via REP.. but REP was my final destination then..

All of us werent motivated to leave and didnt wan to go at all frankly i had no idea y but aside from the flight, i didnt wan to make tis trip at all.. Soon we boarded and Hani was seated beside me and i gave her my window seat cos she nvr flew before..

Talked her thru the entire take off process and frankly, the view during take off was awesome.. Shortly after take off.. we started to catch some slp but it wasnt really possible.. in a 181 seater A320, its really cramp.. and wif a full load, its worse!!

We touched dwn at 0705 Cambodian time.. Cambodia is 1hr behind Singapore… Cleared immigration and tats where the adventure began.. We headed to tis Malaysian Restaurant and it was malay food.. didnt eat cos i had a bloated stomach.. so jus had tea..

Went to Central market and old market and e onli shopping mall that had an escalator and off to Bakong where the centre was at.. Prolung Khmer Training Centre was the place where my open house was held and the road show by another team will be on tat centre..

Wen we were there, well they had no lights and no fan.. Frankly speaking it was very warm but i kinda expected it.. Walked around the place and the 2 ladies in charge of the centre wasnt around.. Saw a well and how they pumped water out and such.. Mmm we were warned before coming not to drink their water esp if its from the tap.

Headed to Maharaja in Pub street for tea and well i feel in love wif the Cheese and Garlic Naan.. Yummy!!! We ordered lots of food.. very nice.. Later we headed to the place where we will be staying in Cambodia.. goodness.. It was how i expected it.. My room was very small.. It was made of wood and very stuffy..

Anyhows.. i took a nap and slept silently.. Dinner wasnt very appetising so yea.. jus ate alittle.. headed to Ang Kor Night Market.. Tats where the road show team will be havin their event.. Chilled out there a little and walked around.. held on to my shopping cos was told PNH was really a place to shop..

Headed back and we chatted and all till late..

Wow its been like few days since i returned.. And yes once again im getting sick…
Seriously.. i wonder y do u go thru 4 painful jabs and then still get sick? What is the purpose of that jab?? Sickening..

Oh wells been staying home to rest.. Can barely talk and coughing quite a fair bit.. Oh wells.. am goin to visit the doctor later.. I refuse to get sick wen im goin to Cambodia.. Hmm Cambodia’s Calling.. tats the name of our trip.. ahha..

Actually lots of fun to expect but as much as we are expecting all the fun, im quite draining.. tiring too.. Lots of logistics to settle.. Oh wells we got our tickets issued already.. Yippy.. am happy.

Oh wells.. next tuesday would be the last day of sch.. Hope it will be a purely do nothing at home kinda thing hehe.. Mmm admiring my airport ever so much.. hahah Seems so majestic and grand.. Mm didnt really expect myself to have something like tis but well thank God i have it..

Its like the next best thign i ever did.. Have my children and my airport.. hehe.. Mummy saw my airport. and she said "So ugly" and she smiled.. Well ugly actually meant the opposite..

Mm yesterday for my RJ, the topic was something abt Indifference.. Part of it was Opposite of Love is not hate but Indifference, Opposite of Art is not ugly but Indifference.. Basically talking abt if u wan to hate, jus hate don be neutral abt it.. Mm it kinda hit me.. But then again.. Who can be so passionate about hating someone rite? Like isnt it tiring?? U jus wil wan to keep away and be neutral..

Well i guess at the end of the day i decided to stand in the middle and refuse to budge..

Think ill go rest now.. Mataneh..